First, I am a GM employee and have been for the past 6 years. Prior to that I supported GM the previous 13 years.
I have worked hard to get where I'm at in life, and I worked hard to become a GM employee, and I was proud to become a GM employee. However, the stress over loosing my job these past months has taken it's toll by way of restless nights, grumpy attitude, drinking more than a beer or a glass of wine and little desire to perform at work.
Where I was once proud of my work, I now loath and spend more time finding ways to prolong my work and drag my feet. I'm not the only one and where it would generally take an hour or so to get a reply from an email, it now takes a day.
I don't like who I'm becoming, it's not who I am inside and it's not who I want to be. It's time for me to take my life back and cut my losses. I am not GM, I am a husband and a father to my children. They look up to me for instruction and watch me as an example.
If I am not part of the layoff, I will wait until after we receive out Team GM bonus. After that, I will seek employment with a company that treats me with dignity and respect. I will work for a company that lives out their integrity instead of the a hypocrite who preaches integrity, but does not live it out. Faith without works is simply dead faith.
I will not be mistreated and I will not stay because of my fat paycheck. Money does not buy happiness and I will not be mistreated in this way because I'm afraid to loose my fat paycheck. I will survive on less money, and I will be just fine. I will sleep well at night because I know I'm valued.