You can't control whether they will keep you or not.
Pity parties should only last for an hour or two.
Fretting for days, weeks etc doesn't accomplish anything productive.
Assume you will be let go and take action NOW.
It really is as simple as this. After the first shock, everybody should be looking to find ways to help themselves the best they can. @zlz+1hPZWqPV is 100% right.