As this is all going on, and with the stress, anxiety and uncertainty of will we have a job come a month or 2, my people leader is production! production! production! How are we to stay focused with these chats and emails going out about metrics and audits when inside all of us are stressed and nervous? Beyond frustrating!
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Applied for the VSP, I wasn't even thinking about it, but after it was offered I started praying about what I should do. I started to realize how mentally exhausted I am after work and over the years of sit down all day job I am no longer as strong as I used to be. It brought to my attention I really need to focus on my health. It's ironic I work in a industry about health but lost sight that mental exhaustion/stress has become a barrier with my own health.
@a8 Being laid off before in my career this brings on PTSD from the last horrifying incident that left me bankrupt and destitute. Lost my home and my sanity. Had a nervous breakdown. This is real and real serious for many as sole breadwinners with kids the pressure is real. My thoughts are with us all as we struggle through this difficult time.
It is likley your PL is trying to help you, as we suspect the August layoffs will be lower performers.
@aq ;) Thanks - it wasn't pleasant admitting it, but it (also) felt nice having the freedom to be real with somebody in leadership, who has played an amazing role in my professional development
@ae Best response ever!
@ac Friend - I get it. I am BURNT to the crisp out. - I recently told an old manager, how I did end up applying for the VSP. They asked me how I felt about my choice. This was my response:
"Very conflicted. Sad. Anxious. Honestly (also) ready. Nearly 9 years. I feel stuck. I am beyond burnt out. Motivation is forced. Passion feels generic. The joy of helping mbrs doesn't feel as sincere as it once did, and that absolutely crushes me..."
For me, I don't know if I have any other options but to take the offer if I am approved. A job I once felt SO passionate about, has been intruded by an orginixation which stripped away my joy. -Of course I fear the job market, but I (also) know provision has followed me so generously in life. AND next right thing will come along; even if it means a bit of a pay cut
Good luck my friend. I hope that peace is a companion on your journey too.
@a4 I could not agree more. I have always found pride in doing a job well and going the extra mile. Mentally it’s so hard right now. There is a big push with production and cross training all the while looming is the VSP deadline and the involuntary RIF that will follow. I’ve never been a quitter but I feel so burnout and have zero trust in this organization.
It is times such as these when we need perspective, and maybe even a little motivation and encouragement from others.
Centene did a horrible job with the whole roll out. First starting with Mission Simplify , a "transformative" program introduced with little guidance, resources, goals, etc.
Then announcement of the Voluntary Separation Program - giving potential participants only a few weeks to decide if they want to voluntary leave their position; with some people being at the organization for 5, 10, 15 + years.
If you did not get enough time to consider if you want to voluntary disband from your source of income - random layoffs will soon follow without the additional benefits of the VSP.
You are right to feel this way. It is normal, human, and understandable. I need to remind you of your greatness, of your strengths. You were chosen to fill your position for a reason, you did that! and you can find another opportunity, even if you have to find something in the interim until the next right move. That is even if you are chosen to be let go. Put your head down, save, keep doing a great job.
Remember, it is up to you to financially and mentally prepare for these things. This is life.
I sure wish I had an answer for this.Before the first VSP email went out, I never struggled with my motivation. I was always on top of my required metrics, without obstacle. But since then, although I’m still hitting and exceeding my goals, the effort feels incredibly forced. I don't want to feel this way, but I can't shake it. Apathy goes against who I naturally am, yet lately, that is all I seem to feel.