I stuck by the motto of always just being happy that I had a job that paid decent. With excellent benefits. 2 years away from that sabbatical..
The stress. Is. Ki-ling. Me.
Mentally. It’s imparing me. Physically as well. My husband and I are trying to start a family and I have a feeling that won’t be possible if this stress continues. Despite being a high performer (exceeds expectations) on my review, waking up at 4-5AM to coordinate with my fellow Scrum/QA people in India, and stay on a little later to work with folks in cali and Seattle. Why do I feel like I’m still expendable. My entire team has worked on items related to each TG.
I lose sleep over this place. I snap on my husband easily. Granted we work similar hours it’s like I never see him.
I’ve been in EAP for almost a year now. That itself should have been a bad sign. My boss says that “he loves the work I do and is beyond greatful” all the time. Yet goes to his boss with the d-mbest complaints ever. Zero trust.
I saw someone post and get flames for “asking to be layed off” - is that actually a thing? There’s some things on Reddit about it and random web links. I don’t know what to trust.
If I have a job next week, do I just tell my manager that if they are looking for people to voluntarily leave and be part of all this- I can do it?
I need a break in my career. For my sake. For my families sake.