Face at, SLB has always been best at squeezing all the juice out of the best people, and when the time comes to cut, - just chunk the rind out the window.
Oil business is about extracting nasty fossil fluids with lots of plumbing and some electronics, and a little bit of chemistry.
There's a lot more to life than the oilfield.
Go do something else. Walk away from the oil industry. You are witnessing the beginning of at least of few years of downward stress/
Learn how to live a less stressful life than what the oilfield does to its best workers.