Wow. I'm in pieces. I feel I am going crazy, have no reference to reality anymore, and unfortunately nobody close to me who can objectively help/listen.
I broke up with my girlfriend of 2.25 years a few days ago. It was rather out of the blue, although it took me almost a month to go through with it and really clarify my ideas. I broke up with her because I didn't feel "in love" with her anymore, although now after the breakup I'm more confused than ever.
Our relationship has been great. I truly loved her, and she still loves me above anything else. I started dating her when I was 25 and I am now turning 28. She is 5 years older than me, and gave up her dream of having children, for me, because from the beginning I made it clear I didn't want any. From the beginning we had both intense feelings and experiences together, but also from the very beginning some fundamental personality differences. Throughout our relationship we kept having highs and lows, the highs definitely more remarkable than the lows, yet the lows weren't "You can't go drink at the bar!" kind of lows, but rather "I'm an atheist and you're a God fearing Christian", or "I work my ass off to achieve a goal and you live vicariously through Facebook" kind of lows. I felt from early on that we had these fundamental differences, but we also had from the beginning incredible sex and fantastic experiences, along with great conversation.