Though salary is paid every month, it's not just waste of time, but I'm well aware that it's also definitely ruining my mental health day by day.
Every single day as I wake up and throughout the day, I ask myself, "why am I here" and "why do I need to work with these young inexperienced childish immature Yes-Men and Yes-Women in 20's and 30's, joined Cisco as a new grad who don't say anything about their opinions or who don't utter a single word without even showing their faces via webcam at concalls, and who just send stupid "Recognition" emails each other so often just for normal mediocre tasks, like kids in kindergarten.
Actually, I want them (Layoff Dept. and my young (younger than I by over 10 years) stupid childish manager who's been at Cisco for 22 years without any experience outside the company but snobbishly bosses me around at all times, especially at one-on-one, who doesn't speak English at all) to start pushing me out in writing first, and then I'll decline anyway (though I want to leave asap). Thereafter, nego will start...
As I first joined the company, I thought the above is happening just to the Jxxxn office, but for the past one year, I've come to realize this is not unique to my office in Jxxxn, but a lot of professionally experienced people joined from other tech companies are feeling the same. I'm now aware that the situations are the same in all offices worldwide.
Not sure when it's ending...
I've worked at several US tech companies for the past decades, but never have I felt this way.