I'm sorry you're in this headspace. I sincerely hope you were able to enjoy at least some of the day yesterday with your family. I left BNYM on my own & have never been happier. Once I started job searching, interviewing, and receiving offers, I felt that I was back in control. We each control Our Lives. BNY is a horribly diseased company, but if you take back your power and start job searching now, you will feel much better. It's better to conduct a gradual, targeted job search over a longer period of time. Please don't let bny ruin your days, and especially important moments with your family. The company definitely robbed me of my happiness and health, both physical and mental, but I reached rock bottom and said "no more". I started job searching, and five months later I handed in my resignation. Best thing I ever did for myself. Hang in there and please do what you can to take that power back. Good luck. :)